The last 24 hours have been immensely emotional, to say the least.
As bible study was wrapping up last night, I realized that I had missed a call from my grandmother (aka: Gma). Alarms and sirens immediately began blasting in my head because she had called me earlier that afternoon to tell me that my grandpa (aka: Gpa) was not doing well. He had not gotten out of bed and had been put on antibiotics for congestion. Wait, maybe I should back up a bit, eh?
Over the past few years, Gpa has suffered several strokes, and he is now living in a great 24-hour care facility. He has been quite a trooper though. He has persevered through several falls, illnesses, breathing issues, etc. As Madre says, “he has the constitution of an ox.” However, things have gotten progressively worse over the last month or two. So when Gma called yesterday afternoon, my heart immediately sank to my stomach. I knew this was not a good sign.
When I realized I had missed another call from Gma, I immediately called Madre to get the scoop. (I can’t say why I didn’t just call Gma first. Maybe I was too scared to hear.) Anyway, Madre informed me that Gpa had come down with pneumonia, and the nurses were calling hospice. I am so embarrassed, but tears immediately began streaming down my cheeks as I heard this. In front of EVERYONE. (The HORROR). I couldn’t help it. I mean, I have been preparing myself for this type of news . . . but you never really are ready. You know? Well, once I got back home from bible study, Madre left to make the 2 hour drive to my grandparents’ town. I had to stay at home due to the lack of sleeping room at Gma’s.
As you can imagine, today has been nothing but tense muscles and sad sighs. I actually have a love-hate relationship with my phone at the moment. Every time I hear that swoosh sound that signals a text, I hold my breath. Gahhhhhh.
At the moment, Gpa is holding steady. He is on strong antibiotics, but hospice does not know if he is strong enough to pull through this time. So if you are willing, my family would truly appreciate your prayers (or well-wishes, or thoughts, or whatever you prefer).
Since Madre is comforting Gma and Poppa is working, I had to find ways to keep myself (mostly my mind) preoccupied. So what did I do? (after going to the gym, of course)
Yup. Definitely my motto today.
The silver lining is that my sugary frenzy produced some purely delicious recipes to share.
Chocolate Banana Swirl Cupcakes with Peanut Butter Frosting
- 1 1/2 sticks (3/4 C) unsalted butter, softened
- 1 C sugar
- 4 eggs
- 2 tsp vanilla
- 2 C cake flour
- 1 tsp baking soda
- 3/4 tsp baking powder
- 2 mashed extra-ripe bananas
- 1/4 C cocoa powder (I like Hershey’s Dutch process)
- Preheat oven to 350 degrees.
- Beat butter and sugar until thoroughly combined.
- Add eggs one at a time.
- Add vanilla and mix until well combined.
- Add flour, baking powder, baking soda. Mix well.
- Divide the batter equally between two bowls.
- Add the mashed banana to one bowl and the cocoa powder to the other.
- Place paper liners in a muffin/cupcake pan.
- Fill one side of each cup with banana batter and the other with cocoa powder.
- Swirl batter together with toothpick.
- Bake for about 15 minutes.
- Cool completely before frosting.
- 1 stick (1/2 C) of unsalted butter, room temp.
- 4 oz. cream cheese, softened (I used reduced fat)
- 1/2 C creamy peanut butter (natural pb not recommended)
- 4 C powdered sugar
- 1 T milk
- Beat butter until softened.
- Add cream cheese and whip well.
- Add peanut butter, whip.
- Add powdered sugar 1 C at a time.
- Add milk slowly.
- Beat on high speed until nice and fluffy.
- Frost those cupcakes! 🙂
I even made little mini me cupcakes with my extra banana batter!
This batter was thinner than the cocoa one, so why not make little baby banana cupcakes? Just dollop any leftover bater into a mini muffin tin. Oh! That peanut butter frosting!!!!! Your taste buds will be giddy with glee. SO DE-LISH!
Well, this girl is tired from all that worrying and baking! I will share my second scrumpdidiliumptious recipe tomorrow!
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